Darren's Nifty Page Of Wisdom

Did you all see the way awsome journal Vince did fer me? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Love Ben Affleck....Gah he is so wonderfully delicious...*Licks him up* MMMMMMMM Tasty dactyl...

So anywho thought i would pimp for Vince..*that sounds so naughty...giggles* Great layout hun you fuckin rock....

This post is specifically for dfleprdfan cause we love you and knew this would put a smile on your face....Rob said it would make you happy and friends are supposed to do that and you make us happy so here is us making you happy....
Love, Darren



( Kickstart My Heart )

A SOng For Melissa A.K.A. Alex
We Love Ya Man
Love, Dar N Rob
Be Like That

(Lyrics by Arnold)
(Music by Arnold & Henderson)

He spends his nights in California, watching
The stars on the big screen
Then he lies awake and he wonders, why
Can’t that be me
Cause in his life he is filled with all these good intentions
He’s left a lot of things he’d rather not
Mention right now
But just before he says goodnight, he looks
Up with a little smile at me and he says

If I could be like that, I would
Give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do

Now and dreams we run

She spends her days up in the north park,
Watching the people as they pass
And all she wants is just a little piece of
This dream, is that too much to ask
With a safe home, and a warm bed, on a
quiet little street
All she wants is just that something to
Hold onto, that’s all she needs

Yeah!!

If I could be like that,
I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do

I’m falling into this, in dreams
We run away

If I could be like that, I would
Give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do

If I could be like that, I would
Give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do

If I could be like that, I would
Give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I
do, what would I do

Falling in
I feel I am falling in, to this again

Brokeback Mountain in my opinion sucked.....amung other things lol I wasn't happy with it at all. When i think of a love story that was not what i had in mind. it could have been so much better. I believe had a gay man written it the movie would have had so much more to it. I understand the era they were in and ennis's feelings on the subject from his childhood but it was more about him not being able to be who he truly was and his internal struggle. 20 years or more is a long time to have a fuck buddy. and once in a while i hardly would have classified that as a loveing relationship. I guess i am spoiled.....Love ya Robby :D

---Isn't that always the way it works? I have yet to discuss this with various people due to my inability to comprehend what's going on myself. Although i do feel it would be a fair assumption that Rob my wonderfuly, sexy man toy would understand my current dillema. And i know that Melissa would but i am reluctant to burden anyone. Even though i have Rob with me daily now which is totally awsome having him back in my life, I feel completely detached from the relationship. I don't know if it is me or what but it seems as though we have managed to become what we were and are happy but aside from the sex we are just best friends. This isn't a bad thing mind you it's great to be in love with your best friend but i don't feel that surge of whatever i used to when he walks through the door anymore. I used to leap and my heart would pound and now it is a common occurance in my life and it lost it's luster. Am i falling out of love? NO WAY!!!!! i love rob with all my heart i did think at one point maybe it was him dealing with whatever he had distrupting his emotional flow and that was transending to me negativly.
---Don't get me wrong we havn't fought nor have we even acted like we wanted out of this but something in me feels as though we aren't connecting like we used to. SO Rob if you read this and i know you will would you talk to me? Tell me whats going on with you so we can fix this. I wanna be excited to see you again and feel that burst of emotion when i do see you. Let me help you to help me or vise versa. I love you Rob and i always have and most assuredly always will.
DAR

Yeah okay so Melissa don't keep asking us lol here are the lyrics to Barenaked Ladies-Pinch Me and Barenaked Ladies-One Week.......Curtosy of Rob...

( Pinch Me )

( One Week )

Okay so i spose your all dieing to know if Rob and i are back together...............YES!!!!!!!!!!!! yea...*does a happy gay dance* Don't ask how or why just rest assured we are happy in love as much if not more then we were and plan on making it work this time....LOL gah we do reek of crappy soap drama don't we? So that's my great news. And on another note i would like to thank Melissa vyleishious and her friend Julie for this great icon i am sporting. LOL good idea to do something of this nature.....And so true....We could only hope. Hmmmmm so yeah ummmm new and interesting?????? *thinks* Dunno really ummmm Rob me new icon love of my life that be it. Welcome to my uneventful life.

I am so effin bored omfg!!!!!!!!!

lickilishious Rob, had some pretty hot dreams about you.....*Giggles* is that normal? thought i'd ask just because it seems odd to me that i would be dreaming about you. LOL

bankerboi Phil, sorry i am dreaming about Robby but it happens out of my control ya know......Anyway the dreams pale in comparison to the real thing with you....*Winks*

vyleishious Melissa, great icons i love them got a vison of beauty there mmmmmhmmmm specially the Ryan Reynolds ones *Squeels*

lonewolf84911 Mat, You Putz add me to your friends list like 2 weeks ago......LOL

dolphinpink Angie, yea so since you rarely update and read any of this why am i doing it? ....lol who knows why Dar does anything? Besides the fact i was dropped on my head as a child. Melissa was talking with me reguarding your recent "I am bored with the computer...got computer burn out" blah blah "fortunatly i am shallow and impervious to it" *Giggles*

to anyone i left out sorry i am done now

DARREN

---Okay so your curious to know what has taken me a little over a day to complete...Well I did something for you....I see you always doing things for other people and I thought it was time someone did something for you. Total intent here is to make you smile...If nothing else. Ya see lovie I just think it sucks that you do so much and noone ever gives it back. I have seen you spend countless hours infront of your computer uploading caps of movies....Because someone asked you to. To me that is awsome..That you'd take time out of whatever it is you do for someone elses happyness.
---So here is what I did...Because i think the world of you and am willing to show you that I do I went to the store and purchased 2 items. Spent a little over 40 dollars....Though when you see what i did your gonna know what was that much ...LOL. I came home and proceeded on my project. I noticed too often then not the friends you have in your personal life...(flashes random glances at various people) Seem to only do things if it benifits them. Well this in no way benifited me...Well other then the reaction from you.
---I did it...I took A whole day and made you smile with my efforts. I put everything else aside and focused on my objective which was simply to make you smile...I hope I have achieved that I am sure you will let me know.
--- You mentioned that you wanted to do something.......Well hun you don't have to do it now cause I did it for you...Not much just my time and paitence...which seems like not alot when it comes to doing something for you...Love you always....Darren
------ENJOY BABE!!!!
http://photobucket.com/albums/d82/Def_Leppard-Caps/

....People tend to take for grant it the friend's they have in their life. Somehow they are a stable figure yet your dependancy on them is not known untill you need them. These friends who no matter what will be there in your time of need and who will put everything in their own lives on hold to make your day a little better are the true gifts. I have a friend who out of the goodness of her heart does things for me. Not because i request them just because she is always eager to remind me that she cares and loves me. I would like to send out a big thank you to Melissa. Who's hard work this morning on this layout on my journal has once again showed me that it isn't so much the big things in life we remember...It's all the little things we overlook.
......Much credit for this layout goes to vyleishious She sacraficed a spot of her time and put her life on hold to give me something to enjoy. That to me is a true friend. Your friends are a treasure and they might not realize how much you appreciate them...So i say tell a friend how you feel cause who knows tomorrow they might be gone.
Love You Melissa........... Thanks Again Sweetie..
Your Gay Pet, Darren

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! HOW BERRY GAY IS MA LAYOUT NOW HUH HUH ????? yea well vyleishious armed with an editing tool made me a super gay layout and i am thankfull cause it rocks..............Darren

notes to melissa darren isn't flaming...*taps foot*

I can't believe this it was so funny....I was listening to Phil's cds (which i don't often do due to the fact he likes that heavy stuff) And I happen across a song on one I had never heard....(magine that and I am sure melissa will gasp and clutch her heart...lol) but anyway it fit so well it works and was perfect so I would like to give this to Phil cause he has the most perfect beautiful eyes......I love you baby...

Firehouse-When I Look Into Your Eyes
I see forever when I look in your eyes
You're all I've ever wanted
I always want you to be mine
Let's make a promise to the end of time
We'll always be together
And our love will never die

So here we are face to face and heart to heart
I want you to know we will never be apart
Now I believe that wishes can come true
'Cause when I see my whole world
I see only you

(Chorus) When I look into your eyes
I can see how much I love you
And it makes me realize
When I look into your eyes
I see all my dreams come true
When I look into your eyes

I've looked for you all of my life
Now that I've found you
We will never say good-bye
Can't stop this feelin'
And there's nothing I can do
'Cause I see everything
When I look at you

And for the record melissa I love Firehouse..................
Loves, Dar

okay here they are the last of my dedications to rob plucked out of my brain. so with love rob i give to you.....
Boston The Man I'll Never Be
If I said what's on my mind
You'd turn and walk away
Disappearing way back in your dreams

It's so hard to be unkind
So easy just to say
That everything is just the way it seems

You look up at me
And somewhere in your mind you see
A man I'll never be

If only I could find a way
I'd feel like I'm the man you believe I am
And it gets harder every day for me
To hide behind this dream you see
A man I'll never be

I can't get any stronger
I can't climb any higher
You'll never know just how hard I've tried

Cry a little longer
And hold a little tighter
Emotions can't be satisfied

You look up at me
And somewhere in your mind you see
A man I'll never be

If only I could find a way
I'd feel like I'm the man you believe I am
And it gets harder every day for me
To hide behind this dream you see
A man I'll never be


Journey-Seperate Ways (Worlds Apart)
Here we stand
Worlds apart, hearts broken in two, two, two
Sleepless nights
Losing ground
I'm reaching for you, you, you

Feelin' that it's gone
Can change your mind
If we can't go on
To survive the tide love divides

Someday love will find you
Break those chains that bind you
One night will remind you
How we touched
And went our separate ways
If he ever hurts you
True love won't desert you
You know I still love you
Though we touched
And went our separate ways

Troubled times
Caught between confusions and pain, pain, pain
Distant eyes
Promises we made were in vain, vain, vain

If you must go, I wish you love
You'll never walk alone
Take care my love
Miss you love

(chorus twice)

I still love you Rob
I really love you Rob
And if he ever hurts you
True love won't desert you
No, No

Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored ........did I mention I was bored?????????? yeah so phil is working and darren is alone...*pouts* But tis okay.
vyleishious Hi Hunny your layouts look awsome babe and i love the signature you use now on entries........will you do that for me???????? That flaming vyle thing?..I know I am a pain in the ass...Ask Phil....*GIGGLES MADLY* So yep all is well on the gay front and thats all...And Vyle I love the new layout in vyles_layouts looks fantastic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where is My gay layout hun???
bankerboi 3 Words You You........I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!
dolphinpink woman you need to sit down and chill a bit wow i have heard of busy body but damn you don't sit still.....I mean i have a job and i don't move as much as you...lol you need to plan your days insted of just trying to do everything at once you over exert yourself then you get cranky and Darren knows....He does...It isn't easy maintaining a life of chaos but i did it for 3 years...*Glances At Rob* anyway yea take some time to sit down and not think just relax your turning into a cranky butt....*sticks out tounge*
ladygaia87 Your layout rocks and i love the colors see pink is cool.... LOL...yep sure is mmmmmhmmmmmm
lickilishious One word for you Buddy....WOW!!!!!!!!! Man eloping is so yesturday ya know but hey yall did it and are happy...(I am assuming) Congrats guys enjoy your lives together you both deserve it.
Darren

A song For lickilishious

Candlebox-Far Behind

Now maybe
I didn't mean to treat you bad
But I did it anyway
And now maybe
Some would say your life was sad
But you lived it anyway
And so maybe
Your friends they stand around they watch your crumble
As you falter to the ground
And then someday
Your friends they stand beside as you were flying
Oh you were flying oh so high
But them someday people look at you for what they call their own
They watch you suffer
Yeah they hear you calling home
But then some day we could take our time
To brush the leaves aside so you can reach us
But you left me far behind

Now maybe
I didn't mean to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
Now maybe some would say you're left with what you had
But you couldn't share the pain

No, no, no
Couldn't share the pain, they watch you suffer
Now maybe I could have made my own mistakes
But I live with what I've known
And then maybe we might share in something great
But won't you look at where we've grown
Won't you look at where we've gone
But then someday comes tomorrow holds a sense of what I feel for you in my mind
As you trip the final line
And that cold day when you lost control
Shame you left my life so soon you should have told me
But you left me far behind

Now maybe I didn't mean to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
Now maybe some would say you're left with what you had
But you couldn't share the pain No, no, no

Now maybe I didn't mean to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
Now maybe some would say you're left with what you had
But you couldn't share the pain
I said times have changed your friends
They come and watch you crumble to the ground
They watch you suffer
Yeah, they hold you down
Hold you down
Now maybe brother, maybe love
I didn't mean to treat you bad
But you left me far behind
Left me far behind
Left me far behind

I want to be the first to personally thatnk vyleishious for all her hard work and effort she has put into making some great layouts for people....Sweetie don't think it isn't appreciated I for one Am very thankfull you you and your hard work...So Thank You From The Bottom Of My Heart..
Love You, Darren

I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL I LOVE PHIL

I LOVE YOU PHIL
Love, Darren

KK Rob I Took Your Survey

( Survey )

Since this new engagement has me in a bit of a depressed mode...I feel that i need to find my happy medium. This would include but not limited to the balance within me to struggle and fight and still be okay. I am super happy for Rob and Paul...But, on the flip side i am tore apart..Which goes without saying. Rob do you remember youe 16th birthday party? That night we had a sleep over and everyone was camping in tents in your backyard....It was then you and i met on the path that lead from your house to the brook and you said to me "Darren there will come a time when i am gonna ask you to marry me...Will you? I wanna get this out of the way now. So i don't have to ask again later." I was just thinking about things over this weekend and that struck me. Anywho i spose i will stop my sappy pitty party....Congradulations Rob & Paul.....With Love, Darren

P.S. Just a song to capture how i feel at this moment.....


Staind-So Far Away

This is my life
It's not what it was before
All these feelings I've shared
And these are my dreams
That I'd never lived before
Somebody shake me 'cause I
I must be sleeping
Chorus
Now that we're here, it's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
And all the mistakes, one life contained
They all finally start to go away
And now that we're here, it's so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
And I can forgive
And I'm not ashamed to be
The Person that I am today

These are my words
That I've never said before
I think I'm doing okay
And this is the smile
That I've never shown before
Somebody shake me 'cause I
I must be sleeping

Chorus (altered)
Now that we're here, it's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
And all the mistakes, one life contained
They all finally start to go away
And now that we're here, it's so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive
And I'm not ashamed to be
The Person that I am today

I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Afraid of waking
Please don't shake me

Chorus

I know most everyone at least once in their lives with the exception of priests,monks, and nuns, buddah's too i believe have experienced what it is like to be in love...I too have had this feeling. About 4 years ago my very best friend in the world someone i grew up with lost the love of his life. In an untimly death. I quickly ran to his side to be there for him. I didn't realize at the time what was gonna happen to our friendship which at that time was 18 years strong. We fell in love and maybe had been all along but i was so much in denile about how i felt about him. Rob gave me so much to live for so much to care for and so much to be thankfull for. I being the lunatic i am took him for grant it and did something so stupid even i can't comprehend it. It feels like it wasn't me doing this. But i know i did and now i am suffering the effects of my poor judgement.
Sometimes we as human do things which may seem perfectly okay at the time but later realize OMG what did i just do? And i for one am guilty of this. I did something that hurt the one i love and for this i am truly sorry....For it was not nor ever my intent to hurt him. But realizing i have and that i lost him over it hurts like hell. I never knew what it felt like to feel the heart break and now i do.
I don't believe he intended for me to be so heart broke but i am. watching him go on and give his love to another has just about killed me inside. But that isn't him he don't need to worry about me it's all part of the course of things i gathered and shall learn how fragile even the biggest strongest men are.
So to Rob i give my undieing love and compassion i give this to him of my free will for i will always love him. And i want to thank him for showing me a pure love that is unmatched by any other. I may never be in love with anyway the way i am with him but at least one thing is for sure i had that brief moment in my life where he loved me, he held me, he made me feel things i never dreamed possible and for that i thank him.
Thank you Rob for all you have given me, I take these gifts and journey foward with the hope that there is someone as special as you waiting for me when i reach the end of my journey.
I leave you with this song from my heart......Loving you always, Dar Bear

Lifehouse-Walking Away

the sun goes down as the city lights - pave their way through the darkest nights - raindrops fall as an old man cries - never thought to ever think twice - of all he had - of all he lost - a selfish life I guess comes with the cost - hey remember me - I remember you walking away - hey remember me - I remember you walking away - the same old streets - just a different name - same old house - just the family's changed - pickett fence - the windows stained - freedom spelled by a man in chains - the silence is all we have to give - and the memories of a life I wish we'd lived - hey remember me - I remember you walking away - hey remember me - I remember you walking away - from all that you made - that you lost - or threw away - trade it in for a brand new life - but I can't - can't let go - can't turn around - hold my head high and walk away - hey remember me - I remember you walking away - hey remember me - I remember you walking away